Memo

To any of my friends who think ive evaporated off the steps of the social ladder

Been a stressful 2 weeks,I will tell ye all when ever I see you, just so ye know that, no im not ignoring any of you,and yes I havent had any time to meet up with people etc etc.

But thats all sorted now,mooooooving on!

Im over the moon at the moment, because I got a JOB! yes an actual paid job! Started working in the new pub in town, P.Kellys, since thursday and will be working all this weekend aswell.
Was in at 3 yesterday till closeing, so I didnt get home till bout quarter to three in the am this morning. Hence im very very tired and my feet feel like there about to fall off :(
Pulled about a million pints last night and going to have to do it all over again tonight!

Wanted to die thought when some guy asked me for 7 baby guinness!! I was in the middle of another big order so Andrea said she had it covered for me.

So i'll just see how tonight goes, last night was mental for a friday, god knows what tonight is going to be like!

xoxox

Acceptance really is the best healer

Yesterday was a lot of fun with the family,first time we'd got together in a while and it was a nice way to celebrate fathers day.
Sun was shining and not a cloud in the sky,saw some of my fam that I hadnt seen in literally years,which was really nice.
after yesterday I had come to terms with a few things that have been going on family-wise for the last few weeks in paticular. It was a good sense of closure but at the same time saddening.

Acceptance really is the best healer when you need to face things in life. And its great to have all your family around you at a time when support and love is all thats really needed.
When you play the game of life,you never know what your going to be dealt, its the way you play your cards that determines the outcome of the game.
Some people win, some people lose, and some people have to fold their cards early on in the game.

xoxox

I get into 2nd Year and already my Dad is planning my future in Canada after college

Hes decided I should either go to Canada or Germany.
Cheers dad,book me the fights yeah?

Now seriously, I didnt think Id make it this far this time last year when I was painstakingly killing myself with copious amounts of hours of relentless study and practically jamming books down my throat. I had FULLY convinced myself I would not even get Arts.
In the back of my head I was always saying to myself I had always been lucky in life, and that my luck was going to run out for the Leaving. No joke,I was thinking this through that entire summer.
How wrong was I.
Its weird to think how far we've all come since doing our big LC.

So2nd year beckons me with promises of broader educational choices and intellectual stimulation.
Thats fine and dandy, just pass me a drink while your at it ;)

So yeah had one of those convos with my dad about my 'future' and all that jazz, I think he thought I never had the balls to want to travel the world etc etc, so he was quite surprised when I told him the stuff I wan to do. which included.........

Go to this place. Fingers crossed for NYC Summer '11 nyway. But yeah I would really like to live here for a year or sumthing.Must must must muuuuuuust go to Versaille. I dont care who comes with me just as long as they shut-up and put up with me in my dreamy trance as I melt over every little detail that there is at Versaille.Learn how to snowboard. Yes im being serious!! :)
Ive never been skiing before and Ive a feeling id be pretty bad at it,but I would loooooove to learn how to snowboard. Im already a very wobbly surfer but a kickass water jet ski-er,so I figured I should turn my attentions from water to snow. It'd b so cool

Those are just a few of the things I want to do when I leave college,I have a long list ;)
To be honest Im amazed how much stuff my dad did before he met my mum( she was 23,he was 22, I was about 2 I think?) He'd already worked and lived in New York, Germany, Italy, England and I think some netherland country aswell. Goes to show you how much you can do at a young age.
Till that 'unfortunate' day he walked into the Hollywood Pub on a visit and clamped eyes on the barmaid(me mam) ;) haha his life ended that day. I JOKE i joke :D ha

Its great making plans like these, if we didnt, you'd be stuck in a dead-end job not appreciating life and all the opportunites out there.

xoxoxo

I bruise easily

I know thats also a song by Nastasha Bedingfield but ive come to realise this weekend that I actually really do physically bruise easily!

Ally came down to visit this weekend, so I decided to drag her to rockies for a proper feel for roscommon life,ha. Ended up watching world cup, having the drinks with friends and getting quite drunk. First time id been back in rockies in 4 MONTHS!
Same old stuff really,but it was quite fun from what I remember. We went mad in Jacks when they played 'Rollin on a river' , the dancefloor just kinda exploded!
Also meself ally and karen were bustin sum serious moves to ''ALLYquindro'/ alejandro ;)

Dont recall too much,apart from slippin on the feckn dancefloor at the end of the night,it was all slippy as I was walking across it but I Just fell straight down and landed on my leg,John caught me just as I hit the floor but me legs in bits :(
Next morning was rather hilarious. one word to describe the atmosphere, DEAD.
Then just chilled in our jammies on da couchs all day with duvets and food watching the Osbourens, Was Delish.
Dropped ally off to train station this morn,and then stopped at the bakery on the way home to get croissants for breakfast(also major DELISH!) Im missing ally a bit already tho :(

Now im just totally depressed about the fact I will no longer be home alone for the summer,fams cumin back from barcelona 2morow.NIGS!!


Also,randonyl decided to put some Busted music on when I woke up,put me in suuuuuch a crazy good mood,cos I was all moody for not having tea this morn. But it made me think back just to actually how much I LOVVVVVVVVVVED matt Willis. Seriously,This guy was my first ever proper full blown crush, and I mean I was IN LOVE with this guy.I think I was like 13 or 14 years old when the crush started. I just thought he was so cool and cute and talented. I used to buy all the magazines he was in,put up all his posters on my wall and I knew every little detail about him,from his middle name to his favorite shirt that he owned and what his tatoos represented. Karen used to love james,Ruth used to love Charlie, I was just madly in love with Matt. To me he was perfect. After Busted he tried to make a solo career,do some tv stuff and was in and out of rehab twice for Alcohol abuse,which was no secret as he'd always been known as a hevay drinker while he was in Busted. After that he went on to win 'Im a celebrity get me out of here!' married his long-term girlfriend Emma Griffiths, and then they had a baby girl last year. Now he does some presenting for ITV,MTV and also music producing.

In all honesty, I STILL BLOODY WOULD,hes now DILF! Hes done pretty well for himself after the whole rehab thing. Im not gonna get to marry him (*tear) but I like seeing him do well and its nice to remember him when I had that mad school-girl crush on him.
WHAT A BABE

xoxox

Ale-whatro?

For those of you who havent seen the new Gaga video for 'Alejandro' I strongly recommend you watch it.

Its the subject of much speculation at the moment,with even Katy Perry slandering it as 'Blasphemy' yes that right, the christian woman who sang proudly about kissing a girl and liking it,is critizing Gaga for her use of religious imagery.
As much as I ADORE Katy Perry, I think that was a pretty stupid thing to say,coming from her.

But yeah Ive an opinion on the new video. The web is buzzing that the video stands for the mistreatment of Gay MEN within religion. Some people are reading waay to far into it though.
I love Gaga for the simple fact shes a 24 year old musical and lyrical genius, I dont rave about her avant garde fashion though. I think for the age she is,she has helped change a lot of stereotypes within the world of pop music and the predjudice that 'pop' music is cheesy,bad quality and cant be done live. With Gaga all that is untrue.

But Alejandro,the video had been a little bit of a let down for me. While I was watching the video,paticular scenes in it reminded me strongly of THREE Madonna videos, 'Like a prayer', 'Vogue and 'Erotic'. I dont know why but paticularly 'Vogue' when Gaga was dressed in a black pant suit and waistcoat,in a black and white scene dancing with her back-up dancers. It was like I was looking at madonna. Im not saying Gaga copied Madge, but it just strongly reminded me of these Vids.

Also Gun-bra? Now thats a littttttle bit controversial ( ahem madonna blonde ambition tour,cone bra)
Im actually not going to give my full opinion cos I know a lot of die-hard Gaga fans would probably come and hunt me down and choke me with red lace and a disco-disk!

Personally I do love Gaga, Im just not mad about the alejandro video, so dont hate!


xoxoxo

16 and Pregnant........

Not me but the show.
I love love love LOVE that show. But at the same time I cant help but either cry or feel depressed after each and every episode. Each episode focus's on one teen as the weeks approach in the lead up to the birth of their baby, they focus on the economic pressure,the struggle to have still ahve a normal teen life, the strain teen pregnancy on a family and the most common problem,the babydaddys,who are ALL asswholes bar Tyler.
From the general outlook most of these teen girls became pregnant because they and their boyfriends did not practice safe sex. The same excuses keeps coming up because NONE of them took any precautions what so ever! Dumb idea yes. Do I feel bad for them on that issue? No.
But what I do feel bad about is the lack of support emotionally that these girls recieve from their parents,school friends and boyfriends.

First im going to rant about the babydaddys. MY GOD they are the most selfish,irresponcible,inconsiderate, self-centered little shits ive ever come across. And the vast majority of them leave by the end of the episode.
Example one, the one I hate the most
season 2 episode 2 : Nikkis story, her boyfriend Josh is the most childish dickhead Ive ever seen in my life. First off,when nikki told him she was pregnant, he told her to abort it,he broke up with her,then started dating someone new. He then went back to nikki and became a control freak who wanted to have nikki all to himself.
He ordered her to leave her prom early so they could spend time together,but when she was waiting in the parking lot of her prom for him, he was no where to be found,so she walked home,pregnant and in her promdress!
It gets worse.
In the delivery room, Josh keeps complaining that hes tired whilst Nikki is in labour, at point one he actually complains that he wants chinese! Nikki is in serious pain at this stage,crying her eyes out to which Josh casually says 'i dont know what the big deal is,im pretty sure a guys pain threshold is SUPER high than a womans' ehhhhhh EXCUSE ME???? what a retard!!!
Soft spoken Nikki cant do anything about the situation as it escalades with Josh starting a fight with Nikkis mom telling her to back off and that he is number one in Nikkis life and that she is 'just number 2'. At this point he gets a mouthful from his own mom and Nikkis mom. He then walks out in a selfish rage leaving nikki while shes in the midsts of labour. He eventually comes back for the full delivery while nikki gives birth to their baby son Lyle( who unfortunetly is the spitting image of his asswhole dad)
After a month,Nikkis back in school balencing work and the baby. Nikki then hears rumors that Josh is cheating on her and seeing his ex behind her back(which turns out to be true), Josh then breaks up with Nikki in a resteraunt leaving Nikki to take Lyle home by herself in tears :(

I just cant find the words to describe how much I wanna deck that little piece of crap Josh. I really hope Nikki and her son are happy without Josh in their lives.

Thankfully not all the guys are idiots. Mainly Tyler from Catelynns episode in season one. Catelynn and Tyler both grew up in unstable homes and theyve been together since middle school. The only thing is that Tyler Dad and Catelynns mom ended up falling in love,and getting married after catelynn and tyler started going out.So in a way Tyler and Catelynn are related by marrige. Tylers dad is not good news, he has been in and out of Tylers life becuase he has spent most of Tylers life in Jail so the father-son realtionship is extremely strained. When Catelynn finds out shes pregnant, herself and Tyler make the MAJOR decision to put the baby up for adoption. They decided it would be the most loving thing to do,as the household they lived in was not the ideal environment to raise a baby both emotionally and finacially with tyler and Catelynn still being in school,not being able to work,and a 'grandfather' whos in and out of jail.

They both go through a very painful time in comeing to terms with the fact their giving up their baby daughter,and that they will have a limited part of her life. They find a couple they would like to raise there child and agree to a semi-open adoption. The adoptive parents will send pictures and letters and news to Tyler and Catelynn and they will only be able to visit twice a year. But Tyler and catelynn dont know the surname of the couple or where they live.
Its heartbreaking as Catelynn gives birth to their daughter Carly and she and tyler start crying becasue they dont want to hold the baby for fear of becoming attached.They hand over the baby to the adoptive parents on hosptial grounds, and I cried so much as Catelynn and tyler cried over the loss of their daughter Carly,but they did it in her best interests so she could lead a better life that they cant provide. Tyler kept Carlys baby blanket,one of the only things they have to remind them of Carly for the time being.
Thankfully these two are still going strong, and are dealing well with the adoption. They are the sweetst couple you could ever possibly come across,especially since their home lives are not stable at all.

Its a really good show with a lot of stories about teen life,and the struggles of being pregnant and having a baby when your still just a teenager in school.
Seriously,watch this show.

LockDown

Im starting to realise how crappy it is when ur on ur own and u dont have a car for the evenings.

The added factor that the weaters being pretty depressing does NOT help.


grrrrr