Also...

I have to figure out a way of picking out 2 oufits in between study ,
they must be fit for church attendance but still show a bitta leg and are enough to make me feel real fergalicious--thats got to be the most retarded word ive ever used.

damm

Almost there

Finally its the day before my last exam,relief!

To be frank, the last 2-3weeks have been probably some of the worst Ive experienced both academically,emotionally and physically in the past 9months of college. The build up to exams really did build me up into a paniced frenzy,this added with other issues has not helped in keeping me calm within the last month. I swore to myself after my 2 exams on saturday that I would never let myself get into this state ever again.
I honestly do worry waaaay too much about insignificant things and insignificant people, and thats one of the things Im going to work on during the summer, I need some serious chill time!

Other than that I feel awful because of the lack of contact Ive had with people over the last month,totally my fault of course,when I get stressed about something coming up, I just shut everyone out until its over. Its hard to explain but its the only way I can get work done and 'get in the zone' as it were.( I get way too easily distracted unless I shut everything out!) Thats how I work,I give it my all.

So hopefully when papyrus to cyberspace is over 2morow my life will start to find normality again. Kinda will be hard to do this weekend, as its going to be a busy one!
As soon as my exam is finished I gotta get a train back to roscommon.My sisters Confirmation if on the friday,then we have to go for dinner,then we're going to our ballet schools website launch, then saturday is my brothers communion!(yeah mad I know) so we gotta go to the church,and back to our house for food and the party.Apparently a lot of my family are coming down for the weekend so my house is going to be a mad house for 3 days. Theres also the possibility I might have to give up my bed,anyone wanna offer theres? haha
Only thing thats making up for it is the BOUNCY OBSTACLE COURSE!!!! :D which will hopefully be in our back garden on saturday.

I will refrain from making an eejit of myself............until the kids are gone! ha.

So right now im drilling as much notes into my head as humanly possible in the hope I never have to do another information studies module for as long as I live!
It really is that boreing.
Im actually dieing for 2pm tommorow, SUMMER '10 BRING IT ON!!!!!

xoxoxox

Sunday afternoon,cuppa tea,PostSecret

Below is my absolute favorite.

Needless to say

i was going to write something, then it got deleted


stupid blogger.

Rant

exams please go DIE


seriously


tired,cranky,annoyed,moody,emotional,recked,ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY
Stupid
naive
pushover
weak
gullible

FED UP OF ALL THE BULLS%#T

im so unbelievebly tired of it all
keeping these words in my head ''it will all end soon''

Lucozade is my drug

and skittles are my saviour

in case u cant tell its exam time.
This week is going to be HORRIBLE.
Exam thursday and two on SATURDAY!!

I got my ass down to the library at 8.50am and stayed there till 3pm
6hours of continuous Literature and Context.
Yes im tired
I had only 3hours sleep last night,worrying about people. Then I woke up in a cold sweat at the thought of failing.
You may be thinking ''pppffft you think thats hardcore study??You think you got it bad?''
Screw you,Im only little, im mentally,physically and emotionally exhausted.
The only thing I take comfort in, is that im not the only one and that we're all working our asses off.
I sugar crashed about 3 times.
It wasnt fun.
Checking out all the hot med guys kept me alive though.

Now to repeat again. I hate college right now

Gerry Ryan RIP

I know i Havent blogged in short while but I think today calls for a tribute to one of Irelands most beloved broadcasters.

Yesterday afternoon,a little after lunch time, the news broke over the web that Gerry Ryan had died. At first I thought it was some kind of joke or rumor gone wrong,but as I heard my roomates in my apartment also discovering the news it became apparent that this was no joke.
Gerry Ryan had passed away.
I was in shock and confusion,most like the majority of Ireland when the news started to sink in. It was just so out of the blue, my first immediate thoughts were his family.His children. They had just lost their father, and as they had once called him, their best friend.

Gerry was a very talented man. To be quite honest he has been the voice of Irish Radio for many many years. He pushed the boundaries of broadcasting with questionable topics that other radio presenters were too afraid to cover. He swore,he drank, he laughed, he mocked,he cared.
For many people in Ireland Gerry was the start to their day. He talked as if he was talking to his friends and left no issue off the cards. He poured his heart and soul into his job and even revealed some personal experiences to help feel a bit more closer to the irish public.
Above all Gerry was a friend to everyone.
Anyone who listened to his radio show,could feel that warmth and friendlyness that poured from his voice. Mornings will NEVER be the same without him.

In my family, ever since I was younger,it was always gerrys show that was put on in the mornings. wether it was my mother,my granny or my grandad,someone always had his show playing in our house. Mam never fully liked him, she had once worked in a bar in Dublin and had served Gerry when he was a lot younger, and said she thought he thought of himself as a big shot. But she admitted,from his radio show it sounded like he had changed his attitude since then(marrige,mortgages and children do this according to her!)

My mum wasnt the only one to have had words with gerry in my family. I did aswell :)
Waaaaaaaay back in 2007 when I was in TY and i wasnt afraid to run my mouth. I had rolled outta bed and turned on the radio to hear some woman on gerrys show talking about TY and Work experience, she seemed to strongly believe that work experience MUST be based on what career you want. I thought she was talking crap,as I had just done my W.E and thought how the hell was a 16year old supposed to know what to do with their life?? So I text the station giving my view, 10 minutes later I get a call from RTE asking me would I be willing to speak to Gerry on the show about my view?
Of course I said yes, and within the next 5 minutes I heard a ''helloooo robynn!! good morning to you!''
I was aware I was on national radio at that moment so tried to keep cool, so I explained to Gerry how I Felt about TY,work Experience and how I didnt think it was fair that Teenagers are expected to know what they want to be at such a young age.
Gerry was lovely,and asked all the right questions and laughed here and there when I said something teenagery. But he asked what I wanted to be and where I wanted to go to college and what will I be doing for the rest of TY. It was quite bizzare,I felt like i really was talking to a friend on the phone,completely forgetting that half the nation were tuned in.
Anyone else whose ever been on his show will say the exact same thing.
We finished up our converssation with gerry wishing my the best of luck in future,and telling me he had no doubt I would get on well in life, no matter what path I chose, Which was nice for an adult to tell a naive,mouthy 16 year old.
Gerry seemed to like me( or find me highly opinionated)as my convo with him ended up in his Saturday picks where he re-ran the best bits of the week. Cheers Gerry.

So now the big guy at RTE is no longer with us. Irish Radio is going to change, but no one will ever be able to fill gerrys shoes.Its a sad fact that we wont hear that cheery,comforting voice in the mornings anymore.If I were you id go listen to a few of his shows,just for fun,even If u never listened to him that much give it a shot and then you'll know what im talking about when I say that Ireland has lost a dear friend.

RIP xoxoxoxo