Late as ever

Ok so the good news

i finally finished school,thank fuck!
after 14 years(yes thats how long it actually is!) im finally done with the thing i HATE the most

and i couldnt be more happier
that was until i woke up the next morning and realise i had a week and 4 days to get my ass in gear for the biggest exam of my life.
Thats when it started to come crashing down,and to be honest i dont want to get stressed about it but it seems if you dont people think your a lazy underachiever who doesnt appreciate education.

Listen im just not up for tears,drama,hair loss and sleepless nights.
There is such a big drama about this LC
is it worth it?
at the moment i have these symtoms and as much as id like to get rid of them its the people around me who make me worried.
can i just get on with it please?
if anyone fucks up,its not the end of the world and i really wish students would recognise that instead of digging themselves into their own grave.


so.....GRAD MASS NIGHT!

loved every minute of it,apart from the part where we all started balling our eyes out dureing the last song of the mass,we couldnt even sing!
Part i hated was where i went on stage to do the last poem thingy and almost started crying!(what a cry baby!)
but meh i got a bit emotional seeing all the girls smileing that night :)
Then went to the pub and we were LOCKED!!!!!
loved every minute,every drunken class mate and every confession that was revealed that night ;) ha

im never gonna forget these girls
whata bunch of babes :)

Go back to the start

so we read this poem in class today
its called ''Summer elegies''by Derek Walcott(total ledge womanizer)

the first 3 stanzas were purely about sex
on a beach,
for like the first time
kinda describing in a nervous teenager way
'the things we did'' and 'hands dareing to be bolder''
Woah,it was graphic
i found it really alright to begin with,but by the time it was finished the poem took on a completely different meaning that had NOTHING to do with sex.

the end was about relationships and how with time they fade away
even a realationship that is once passionate and fun eventually dies out,like the memory Walcott was remembering in the poem.

the thought of that really struck me
if all relationships eventually die out then in what concept and context does the word 'love' come into the question of relationships?

in my opinion(and you dont have to agree)
Love is the most over-used and abused word in the entire english speaking language.As stupid as it sounds and i know how critical some people will be when i quote Lauren Conrad :'Love is not a maybe thing,you know when you love somebody''
but how?
how the hell do you know?
There are a few people ive come across in life who dont belive in a little bit of l.o.v.e and who firmly believe that it doesnt exsist which their quite entitled to.
Then theres the people who throw the word around like a football and have no meaning behind it whatsoever
and of course i'll put my hands up and admit that ive done that a lot in the past,everyone has.
Then there are the people who will say it just because they feel obliged to do so.

I could go on about this forever but ive just made tea and its getting cold now :) so i should probably wrap this up

if you want to debate me with this i would LOVE too (get it??!)

anyway,to anyone who has msn me in the last 2weeks
i actually havent been online in 2weeks and im still not cos my broadband is broke :(
if i was online u were actually talking to my grandad BAHA
My msn is on his laptop and the stupid thing signed me in everytime it switched on :P grrrrrrrrr
BUT I FIXED IT NOW!

so im basically just studying while u lot are online(lucky!)
but i'll get my Broadband back soon ;)
if anyone wants to lend a hand with the study,PLEASE do!!!!! 6weeks left and im screwed.

p.s congrats to Johnny and Lynda on the birth of Baby Holly!welcome to the fam !

Oh by the way,You,i miss you

its the risk that im takeing,im never gonna shut you out.

xx

Dead Or alive

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sorry,im alergic to bullshit

so i kinda abandoned this for a lil bit.
wasnt in the best of ways recently,and i was too damm lazy to even try to write.
but back now :]

So basically everything kinda fell apart this week,
ad i mean this in the physical way NOT the 'emotional my life has no meaning' way.First my I-pod headphones break the cheap twats,then my laptop adaptor decides to go hay wire and it wont work properly so i keep havin to switch it on and off :/

I woke up yesterday morning with a sore throat and this morning it was worse,to top that off i think i have pink eye :/ its either that or i just look really really tired.
Freaking out about this damm German oral next monday
IM SO NOT READY!
I have five of these stuuupid rollenspiele to learn off aswell as the pictures,which i abso hate cos their boreing as fuck and i really wish i had learned them 3 months ago :(
that would have been the smart thing to do.
well done Robynn.
but on the bright side the oral might not even happen,the teachers are supposed to be going on strike that day so thank god for the recession if they actually do.

I remember last time they went on strike.
i was in the primary school across the road and we watched them at break time walking up and down with their little signs.it was such a laugh.
come to think about it,i actually remember a lot about the secondary school from my primary school.
We used to make fun at the lads and the girls who where smoochin at the wall and shout abuse at them.god those were the days!! :) i loved tellin the lads to get ther hands off the girls ass when they were at the wall,it was hilarious at the time but now i actually see how annoying it was BAHA.
boys were evil perverts back then
they still are :/


right i just went off on a tangent there,
so annnnnnywaaaaaay
got some stuff for our legendary grad sorted.Signed the contract for the hotel and got the bus prices knocked back a bit,sucess!!
also organising more fundraisers for it so we dont have to pay any more money.
look its a recession!
were not THAT loaded!!
oh and sinead stevans(my new bestie) is really excited about my dress! :)
i would be too ;)
she loves the design and is all ready to get started on it.shes making it for me ,shes an abso genius and i totally trust her with this one.
yaaaaaaaayy

so St.Paddys day is back
the one day your supposed to get TOTALLY FUCKED!
and i might not be
depends how i feel ;)
i'll blog what happened anyway,if i can remember what happens aha!


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Moveing out moveing on

moved house today,
i LOVE my new bedroom
with the walk-in closet.




im in quite a bad mood so i'll keep this short
blog 2mozzo with stories about last weekend and midders

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I cant think of a good title

Really dont feel like writieng


Im just after wakeing up(i fall asleep in the evenings everyday)
Believe me thats not lazyness,its just what i do dont hate.

Mocks are over,less said the better it'll be fun getting the results and counting up the points,not.
My whole year gets a much deserved break now,so hoepully we'll all be fresh as daisies by the time its over and ready to work again,again probs not :]
all i can do is laugh and learn.

James 18th on Friday!
Was so happy i got to see a lot of people i havent seen in about a year.James choose casual attire for the night and he was lookin well!was a really good night,i was still a bit tired so soz if i seemed a bit moody!
And i have to credit Sarah Meyler on her immpecable TASTE in old men *cough-Richard Gere*
and for her hilarious stories that kept me entertained.ive just got two words

CANDY FLOSS!

Oh and can we Stop with the whole Swallow debate,its a bird,lets leave it at that.


So Valentines day was yesterday,
i totally forgot about these deadli pair of vans i own,
would have been a laugh if id worn them.
Nope instead i choose to wear something else with a valentine theme.Lets say it gorgeous and new and 'im not quite sure if its red or pink' lace,and you cant see it.AHA.Haveing one of ''those'' spending sprees this week,looking forward to it! ;)
I didnt go out for V-day,instead i was babysitting! Ya know working girl style.Look its a resession and i needed monez!
Watched that movie with that piece of SEX Aaron Johnson in it,his body is god.I have to repeatedly apoligize to Brian and John for waiting for waiting for me.I dont know what id do with out them.And John missed his chinese :P im such a bad friend.Sorry love.

Found this today,id love to say i drew it but i didnt.My Mum did! its from her portfolio when she was in college but she never finished it so i might give it a go and see how it turns out.
I really dont wanna fuck up one of her drawings :/

Neev just called over with my uggs.
Bless her,i left them at hers on new years but she came over for a lil visit so now im awake again.

Back is killing me.going physio tommorow i think.
Hes going to kick my ass cos i havent been in so long.
Shit, sit-ups would be a good option right now.

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I told him i loved him,i just didnt use words

Havent written in a while really,
well due to circumstances beyond my control i was internetless for a week.
WORST possible timing ever!
I'll get to that in a bit,but first in reference to my pic above!
Its kinda a last fling at takeing pics in my room,as of mid-term it wont be mine anymore :[

Im moveing house :D !!!!!!
And im quite excited,new room will be same size as my current one only i'll have a WALK IN WARDROBE!!! yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy!!Am so excited to decorate the new room and stuff.But it got me thinking....

Im REALLY gonna miss my bedroom.I love it to bits,its one of my favorite places in the world and over the years i made it my own.This means i have to take down all the posters,pictures and vougue cut-outs on my wall :( My room holds a lot of great memories for me aswell,good and bad times and(ahem) really really good times ;] teehee.Cleaned a bit of it out already and found so many old diaries and photos and little notes,it really made me sad and made me appreciate how much just a small space can mean to someone.

now someone else will have it,but they'll never know about all the memories that room holds.
But on the brightside i have a opportunity to make new memories,style out a new room and have sone fun in the new house.



Got my Ballet exam results back with the Cert.Grade 6 Merit baby! I love seeing it in writeing eeeeeeeeekkkkk!! Im loveing Grade 7 at the moment its great. my sister got picked to do the Irish National Dance Awards this year,following in my footsteps,well what can i say?Theirs talent in the Stratford blood! If she doesnt win something i'll kill her,she has to keep up my perfect rep ;]


So mocks started,

I ACTUALLY WANT TO DIE OF SLEEP DEPRIVATION.
I havent slept at night for more 4 hours in 5 days.The pic above is the 1st text from English paper one.Imagine the smile on my face as i opened my first page of my first exam when i saw this pic from Marie Antoinette! :] It went alright,paper two was terrible and i had lcvp after which i didnt get to finish because my hand stopped working :/ as in i actually couldnt hold my pen it was so bad.


Maths was a joke.I failed hands down.


Then Irish,i fucking forgot to answer a question and now ive lost 60 MARKS!!!!!
Feel like total crap,im so effing tired and i didnt watch skins last night cos i thought id sleep if i went to bed early(which didnt happen)


oh and valentines day?

U CAN GO F*%K yourself as always ha

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