Results of not living at home

one messy walk-in wardrobe, the look of guilt on my face says 'im not tidying it until i need to'

hehehe

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A series of unfortunate events

Everything,a nd i mean EVERYTHING breaks just before christmas.

It is a tradition that has never left me alone every blasted year! My stuff starts to break and it couldnt come at a worse time.

My laptop is now extremely ill!
Little red has been taken victim by either a deadly virus or some other hardware related dieaese. So until then I am laptop-less(Oh good god im having withdrawel symptoms already!) So the only way im gettin near online is college computors! *sigh*

I just hope my baby is going to be okay, I have lots of work I have to do before exams, and i NEED to watch gossip girl this week! so its highly important that she gets better( dont judge my laptops gender :/........ ) For now Ive tried almost everything i know possible and done some research on the help forums but i cant figure it out and neither can my uncle marcus(whos assisting me via facebook) Im going to try leave it with John for a bit and see if he can decipher anything out of this.

Until then, Boredom :(

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Im gunna make you swallow your pride

So another 'great' start to the weekend, I find out I was returning to an empty house again. How appropriate.At the moment its saturday night and Im currently awake blogging away in my bed because I swear to god I heard something downstairs and im too freaked to go check it out and i cant even comprehend trying to sleep. I realise I havent done a proper blog in quite a bit, thats due to the fact ive either been either one of the following: too lazy, too tired, too busy or just not bothered at all. I think its a combination of all four that explains it.

Ive had an un-productive 2weeks socially,kind of....
Once again I found myself out of my depth in deadlines for essays that made me want to pull out eyeballs from their sockets and shove them done my lecturers throats. Needless to say from that violent description,I havent been the best of humor most days. I still cant get my head around how to write the perfect Art History essay,seriously! They give you a word minimum, you write everything you possibly can and then BOOM, youve reached 900 words of pure and utter historical perfection completed and yet your still 1000 words off the target. FML Whoever set out the school of art history's essay rules,i really really really really really really really bloody hate you.... Git.

Also on a rather quick note before i forget: Im trying this thing where I stop swearing.Come to realise I have a sailors mouth,no question about it. so trying to cut down on all the dirt talk and be a good girl,in turn the 'F' word will b replaced with a lot of 'bloody' 'git' 'sugar' and 'dammit' Just for future reference so you know im NOT actually trying to act cockney, east-end or whathaveyou.

Back to what I was talking about....ah yeah, my lack of a life right now,fun. Eh well basically, its going to stay pretty quiet for the next while.....again. Study week is the week after next for the christmas exams, and to be perfectly honest Im going to DEFINETLY need it! Most take 'Study' week as a week to go home and be fed and watered by mammy or to stay in dublin for the week and go out on the beer every night until you suddenly realise come sunday, that you are initally royally screwed for exams and start to panic. This year its hardcore study all the way for me ( I can hear the procrastination gushing out as I type that!) Im in 2nd year so there kind of arent too many excuses you can use for failing exams, this all counts towards that GPA at the end of the day, and hey,who heck wants to say they did crap in Arts!! So there will be a lot of endless hours in the library, downloading lecture notes you should have been through 6weeks ago,scary make-up-less-ness,messy 'I couldnt actually give a crap' hair,comfy clothes and tracky bottoms,take-aways and tea and of course late nights infueled with diet coke,red bull and various other energy drinks to keep me going until I actually LEARN stuffs........yes I use the word 'stuffs'....come on,Im a student,we speak no normal.

And fingers crossed I will make it through the exams alive with a pass under my belt.
THEN, we drink!
Id also like to point out that it SUCKKKKKKKKKKSSSSSSS incredibly that Im turning 20 dureing the exams,again F.M.L FML FML FML FML. So i dont know if im holding off on celebrating till exams end on the 22nd or,just have something in between? ugh I'll decide when that gets sooner,but for now its just annoying me a little bit.

ah well!!
Ive nothing else to talk about for now,well thats actually an understatement, btu im just pretty bloody tired and need to go to bed before I pass out on my laptop like I did last week,keyboard face is NOT attractive in the morning.

xoxoxo

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New libro cop wont stop stareing at me so im trying to look busy with this ha

If you married the last person you texted what would your last name be?
Quinn ,hehe

Is there anyone who understands you completely?
I don’t think anyone can truly ever understand everything about a person

Has anyone of the opposite sex laid in your bed?
Yes,people like 2 steal my bed :(

Hows your heart been this last month?
Well its still beatn away haha, ah meh been tampered with,nutin ya cant handle

Has more than one person ever told you they’re in love with you?
LOL u must b jokein rit?

Are you listening to anything right now?
5ive- if ya getting down, so GAY but reminds me of funtimes last thrusday ha

Do you think that two people could last together forever?
Ahhhhhh yeah i guess, i mean c’mon look at Ben ‘N Jerry

Does your best friend approve of the last person you kissed?
Nopes

Could you go out in public, looking like you do now?
HELL NO!

Do you care about the last boy you texted?
Last boy I texted? Or last boy who texted me? Hah nah yeah last guy i text absolutely ADORES me,cant say i feel the same about him so its kinda awkward......shit hes probs reeadin this.... :P

Do you think your next kiss will be a mistake?
Depending on how much alcohol ive consumed, yep!

Do you have someone you can tell everything to?
Yeah

Your ex wants you back?
lolz

Has someone ever made a promise with you and broke it?
Too many

What does your hair look like right now?
Dark browny/reddy nd straight for the 1st time in weeks!

How long was your longest phone conversation you’ve ever had?
3 hours i think, it was lovely :)

Who was it with?
James, we were chatting and then I was watching the Butterfly Effect, we stayed on the phone so he cud tell me when the scary bits were so i cud look away <3 now thats a EPIC boyfy :D

You had sex last night, didn’t you?
Oh dear u got me there! HAHAHA......seriously no. On my tod,story of my life.

Do you have drama in your life?
Yeah wish i didn’t :/

Do you and your most recent ex still talk?
Yeah hes one of my besties, Proof that life doesn’t need to be so dramatic.

Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
Nope

Do you still talk to the last person you kissed?
Of course

Did anyone watch you the last time you kissed someone?
God i hope not :/

Who was the last person to kiss your cheek?
Not tellllllliiiiiiinnnnngggggg ha

Was your last kiss drunk or sober?
I think i was drunk, meh dunno

Do you have any television obsessions?
Gossip Girl, Teen Mom, House, The Tudors, Deadliest Catch, nd i still love re-watching the hills :(

If the last person you kissed saw you kissing someone else right now do you think they would care?
Em i don’t know,id say they wud but bein a typical lad theyd pretend they didn’t care

Do you like hugs or do you freak when people hug you?
They make my day :)

How was last night?
Scary,thought someone was trying to break in

Are you a jealous person?
Nope im anxious and paranoid

Do you think you can last in a relationship for six months?
Dont know

Do you want to see somebody right now?
The girls!

Would you prefer a thunderstorm or for it to be snowing?
Snow Snow Snow!!!

What’s wrong with you right now?
Meh men, stress, college ya know the usual 4 everyone

What color shirt are you wearing?
Navy with a beige string top underneath

Do you have a best friend?
Yup ive a few

Will you be in a relationship in the next month?
Nopes

How often do you straighten your hair?
Not often,i just straighten my fringe when it wont lie flat

Do you think more about the past, present, or future?
The future more often now

Is there someone who makes you instantly smile when you receive a message?
No i hate texting, im more of a face-to-face person, ya know seeing someone in the flesh!!

How many pillows do you sleep with?
2,i cant sleep with just one

Do you want any children?
Depends who id be having them with

Are you wearing makeup?
A bitta mineral powder

When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?
Last Thursday night, I haven’t seen any of my boys since then :(

Are you one of those people who hate crying in front of others?
Its grand in front of my besties,but not in public, thats soo embaressing

Are you in a good mood today?
Me ive an essay to do so im not in the best of moods

Has anyone lied to you lately?
Yep

Are you currently getting over someone?
No im getting under someone ;) haha ah im grand sure

Is there someone you can be your complete self around?
Eh yeah

Has anyone told you they missed you lately?
Yeahhhhh ally did last night the cutie

When and where did your last kiss take place?
Ah thats for me to know ;)

What is the last thing you did before bed last night?
Watched Glee and ate rolos

What are your plans for Friday?
Decide wether 2 go home or not, eat, watch tv, chill out and give someone whats been coming to them for a long time.

Gettn that Festive feeling

I should really write a proper blog,

But im too busy with college work and stress etc etc to actually type anything other than an essay on art antiquity. Soooooooo i decided to do something for me and write out my chirstmas/ Birthday Wishlist!

Just cos ive been too good this week, i deserve a little indulgence........that and i cant stop googleing all these delish things :)

TELL SANTA I WANT THESE!!!

and If u really love me,consider these when picking out my birthday present, cheers thanks okay i love you bye bye! ;D

*sigh* a girl can dream cant they?

Well first things 1st i NEED a new phone so one of these beauts would do fine!

Then because ive become obsessed with nail polish, id LOVE some WAH nails art pens,they look amazing!!

Then cos i was such a good girl this year I think i really deserve the Urban Decay Naked Palette ;) so so so so so so yummy!!!!

BIG WISH! Cheryl coles Hair extensions, just cos im fed up with trying to grow my hair,its taking waaaaaaay to bloody long! also her jacket <3

Bottle of my fave designers perfume, I know i still have Lola but i adore Rain,it smells amazo and lasts a lifetime cos the bottle is huuuuuge!

And finally something usefull, a laptop case that fits my latop.

Because i still cant find one small enough for my teeny tiny laptop :(

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the only thing that kept me sane the last 2 weeks.......

Blair- Then its settled then.

Chuck- We're settled.....

OMG

I screamed and did a little *whoohoo* dance when this happened

:D

xoxoxo

Getting all nostalgic

Someone please tell santa I d really like the new Dvd Diamond 2disc edition of Beauty and the beast.

Saw it on telly there the other day and almost had a heart attack.

I really really really wanna see the new edition with the restored colour and sound and extra bonus bits. Im such a kid, but tis is my ALL TIME favorite Disney movie. Belle was always my fave Disney princess

xoxoxo

Lets play a game.....your not going to win,but I just enjoy seeing you crawl

Your too afraid to jump.

Thats the fucking problem babe.

xoxo

Remember November.....for all the wrong reasons!

Okay so this month isnt going as smooth as i hoped it would. Its november and that means 4 very important things:

1. ESSAYS,this is the time we all get bogged down with deadlines and basically have no social life. It sucks so baaaaaad

2. It gets ridiculously dark at like 5pm,which confuses my brain and makes me more sleepy in the evenings,in turn leading myself to become more lazy than usual.

3. Get to wrap up in lotsa layers and cardigans and jumpers and long sleeves and scarfs and slipper socks and drink hot chocolate/Tea all day every day and wear my favorite, hats! yay yay yay! :)

4. HARRY POTTER COMES OUT THIS MONTH! :D and if your as super excited as I am you should have a Potter week like myself and liane,we are going to watch a Potter movie every night in celebration of the occasion! Im a total Potter-head,read every book a billion times,had an old crush on daniel radcliffe(ew now) collected the chocolate frog cards, ate the jellybeans,had the PS2 games,was a proud member of the online Potter community.

Yeah,total Potter-geek.

Im not even goin to touch on the subject of the big 'C' word that everyone is now getting ready for,its just a litttttttttle bit too early for that.

Last Night I stayed up until the wee hours in desperation of studying for an exam and completing an essay.It was a big.fat.fail.

And i woke up delirious from the lack of sleep, I hate it when I feel like that,quick shower helped but still had to wrap up and drag my ass into college in the windy and cold to go to my exam,return books to the library and print off more work.

Ive got 2 more essay and a stats assignment next week. The actual joys! Whoever said Arts was not difficult obviously dropped out in 1st year and never made it 2nd year!

In other news I got an email back about something fun I could have lined up for the summer.But im still trying to decide wether im going to go abroad this year to work or not? If I stay here in dublin, I have my apartment for the summer anyway and I could see my friends a lot, that and the added fact Im planning my trip to Paris and hopefully a week or 2 in Italy with the Fam.

If I go abroad I might miss all that, a good few 21st's and I might not make that much money if I tod off abroad.Nothings set in stone but nows the time to start applying for summer stuff in the like of america etc etc. ugh decisions decisons!

Wouldnt mind 4weeks there,4weeks here kinda thing. All depends on where the moneys at to be honest! Got rent to pay ya know!

Right i'll wrap this up cos I want to watch a movie and do a bitta browseing on forever21.com before i finally sleep after the tragic fail that was last night :( I hate late nighters,make me feel even more stupid the next day.

ah well

xoxoxo

I wish that you knew when I said 2 sugars actually I meant 3

Im too tired and confused to write anything

the way peoples minds work sometimes,has me seriously thinking some people were just born ignorant and stupid.

Stressed and just a littttttle bit moody

At this point of my 2weeks of hell,its only day one and i want to write about ANYTHING apart from analytical cubism/ primitivism dureing 1907 and 1912 and its importance to society.

Its that time of year again all my work piles up and I cant keep up :(

Other than that im dieeeeeeing to blog about a few things that have been creeping up in the last while but I just havent got the words right now as Im saving all my 'amazing' english writing skills for my essays,which im clearly going to bullshit anyway!Also, If someone would like to volunteer to do my statistics assignment for me please do,id be ever so grateful and in your debt!

Its depressing because this year my grades actually count towards my degree unlike last year where we got away with blue murder! I wish it was still the case but sadly and realistically,its not. Im DETERMINED to get good grades,so im starting to slightly panic about all my work because i want absolutley every single thing I do to be nothing less than perfection.My biggest problem at the minute thats standing in my way of achieving the said perfection is my self-doubt.

Again with the bloody second guessing! But when your exams are looming and you want to get a good grade you cant help but stress over these things. So every time i find myself starting an essay,i stop,read over it,and think 'god that is total crap!' and delete everything i wrote and try to start again.If i keep doing this im going to slowly but surely end up with nothing! My desire for this perfection has kinda crept up from somewhere that has been bothering me for some time.

When there are a million things going wrong in life, you focus on one thing and try to make it right whilst leaving everything less important behind( or everything that you DONT need to think about)

So maybe one small achievement might make me feel a hundred times better about all the other unessessary stuff that jamm up life. I think thats how all our parents have managed to live and survive the shitty aspects of the reality of living as an adult.It aint all peaches and cream out there,some learn that quicker than others.You just deal with it and carry on irregardless with a big fat smile on your face.

Ah jeez, Isnt it great when you realise your now an adult?

If im not alive by friday,assume ive died of overexposure to art history.STRESSER!!!!

xoxoxo